I read somewhere, or watched someplace, a woman talking about how she learned about love with her girl friends.
I’ve learned so much the past few years. There’s still a lot - I’ve never been great at love - to learn. But I wonder if I’ll ever get around to finding a good love for myself.
I found out years ago.. my behavior usually is reactive.
But today I thought: not only that, I usually act resistant.
And you know, there’s a reason for this behavior.. I keep expecting and thinking the worst of people.
For 2023, I will expect the best of people and of me, so maybe I’ll act more like these female leads who trust people’s encouragement so quickly
Eu sinto que a brasa apagou.
Não tem mais chama, não tem mais faísca,
Não sei dizer se as lágrimas apagaram o fogo, ou se chorei quando senti o peito amornar e esfriar
Quantas palavras precisam ser ditas, quantas perguntas precisam ser feitas? Ou talvez nada disso importe, talvez a dúvida cresça sozinha, se alimentando da própria carne.
Eu saí da cama decidida a parar de me maltratar, mas eu continuo, continuo me criticando, arrastando, doendo.